siapa Faliq Fahmie?

if you're a Twitter freak like me, definitely you will know this Faliq Fahmie issue. until today, it's been four days since #FaliqFahmie become a trending which has brought lots of curiousity of who the hell is Faliq Fahmie?? a Malaysian actor ke? or is he the guy yang pecahkan dara blogger yang berumur 14 tahun (juga pernah jadi trending satu masa dulu)? Hahahaha!

honestly, even before this guy become trending pun SK selalu baca timeline dia. kebanyakan masanya sebab SK selalu baca the RT tweet from @karrotgold and @obefiend. at that time, i think Faliq Fahmie nie must be a great person to hang out with, sweet talker with a brain i must say but i did not follow him. why? because i dont see him in twitter as in his blogspot. i dont know why but i guess i nak stalk him via @karrotgold je lahh.

until one day, i noticed @karrotgold keep on updating his timeline with #FaliqFahmie, dengan niat nak menganjeng of course but surprisingly it became a virus and it's spread!! i couldnt stop laughing reading all those tweets of #FaliqFahmie until i decided to follow @FaliqFahmie, just to make sure i did not miss all his replies to those hillarious fellas. sumpah SK sangat jeles nak mati to see their friendship there. and yeah, Faliq replied all those tweets like cool, sweet and gila vavis kelakar jugak! i think tweets from @karrotgold are the most naughty and sweet one but yeah,thats why even the superb gorgeous @mariafarida mentioned him as sweet. OMG i AM a stalker kann!!? :p

okayy, when suddenly Faliq Fahmie become a trending, muncul lah those haters' tweets yang sangatlah kejam dan judgemental. it's like even i as a stalker pun tak kenal this guy, tetiba kau sukahatimakbapakkau cakap "#FaliqFahmie gay", "#FaliqFahmie bajet hensem", i was like..kesiaaan kott mamat tuu! ada banyak lagi tweets haters yang sangat menyakitkan hati bila baca tapi SK memang respect abislah kat Faliq Fahmie sebab SK rasa, cara dia reply to those haters buatkan makin ramai orang hashtag nama dia di timeline masing-masing, makin ramai orang klik untuk jadi follower dia. sehingga saat entry ini ditulis, followers dia da 10, 512 orang okaayyy dan dia BUKAN artis! no wonder even @OfficialKimora mentioned him as a definition of fabulousity!! Kau adee!???

so to Faliq Fahmie, no worries of the haters okay. terus jadi diri sendiri dan maintain lah your avatar tue LOL. and yes to the haters, teruskanlah korang menjeles dan mencaci maki, sebab nak nasihat lebih-lebih pun tak guna sebab masing-masing da besar ehehehe..i just think you're pathetic, maybe kurang kasih sayang agaknya.

erm ermm just to mention here, @FaliqFahmie follow i tawuuuu!! ok tu je,bye! :p

Malaysia Day with Nasi Lemak 2.0 and Broken English

yes i know my english is bad. i dont have enough vocabulary and my english grammar is just suck. yes yes i knew it. but does it stop me to keep writing entries in english? so far no. i will write entries in whatever language i want because i want to. does it stop me for updating facebook and twitter in english? absolutely no.

:) i am learning and since we are in the internet space where everyone can talk/write anything we want, i dont mind if anyone of you who come across with this blog and feeling sick reading my bad english here to drop comments, let me know all the silly grammar or spelling mistakes. but please dont ask me to stop writing english because i wont.

i am malay and i'm proud of it. nobody can argue that. but i usually become more proud and have a bit of goosebumps everytime i introduce myself to foreigners that i am malaysian. i have few indonesian friends who are Buddhist and Muslim but i love the fact that they are all speak Bahasa Indonesia fluently. it's like our Chinese Kelantanese in Malaysia. like one of my friend back in campus, Pei Wen. i cant pretend not to look at her everytime she spoke in class because she got very fluent Kelantanese accent. Hehehe very cute i must say! She even proudly said that she feels safe and calm with the current state administration by Tok Guru Nik Aziz. :) definitely something to be think about, am i right?

please bear in mind, i dont intend to speak politic here. i think politic dramas in the country now playing a major part to separate us as a Malaysian. it is irony right? thats why, despite of everything i read in newspapers and watched in television, i dont judge. i will always look back in reality life surrounds me. i have lots of non-Malay good friends, i have Malay friends who marry with a non Muslim friends. it's like despite of all the differences we have, does this marriage cant give you a logic thinking that actually everything can be sorted off?

last weekend three of us (A, F, and me) watched Nasi Lemak 2.0 movie. i'm the one who bought the tickets so i'm the one who chose to watch the movie instead of Hantu Bonceng (watched it!), The Smurfs (i'll watch it this weekend) and Karipap-Karipap Cinta (errrr..). what shall i say about the movie? Hahaha i think Nasi Lemak 2.0 is the most sarcastic Malaysian movie i ever watched besides Mamat Khalid's Zombi Kampung Pisang. with Adibah Noor, Afdlin Shauki and Namawee in the movie, it was definitely a funny movie with a huge message to tell.

but sarcasm is not something that everyone can digest. i think half of the audience in the hall dont get the message, even A and F. they are laughing of the jokes but they did not understand the underlayer meaning of the silly dialogue. but i think Nasi Lemak 2.0 is another good trial from a Malaysian who wants to highlight our daily issues among other races, in a lighter and funny ways. Namawee, you just need to polish more on your script, then i think you can create another similar movies.


Selamat Hari Malaysia, Malaysia. Sebarkan cinta, jauhkan sengketa.



p/s : this is a scheduled post. ;)

a favourite stranger

i wrote the entry last night, in my handphone spontaneously. this is exactly an unnecessary entry but i do feel to post it here and hoping i will read it with a broad smile in the next few years. this is part of me learning life.

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tonight, i am spending hours at my room balcony, searching for a star in the dark sky (which sadly there's none) with Yuna-Deeper Conversation keep repeating in my handphone.

"is your favourite colour blue?
do you always tell the truth?
do you believe in outer space?"


*sigh*


dear stranger,

only you can make deeper conversation with me. maybe deeper is not the exact word, i dont know. but i never feel how i feel towards our conversation when i have kind of same conversation with others, include my loved ones. it's like i could tell you everything yet i still feel safe here. i love the feeling i love it when i can always put my guard down with you and i dont have to worry how would it sound. i love to listen all your stories of your hopes, fears, dreams, everything deep inside you. i love it when i dont have to think whether all the stories are lies or not because it does not matter in this relationship (if we can call this as a relationship).

i love how you always made me feel that you are comfortable with my presence as a stranger.

like our usual joke, yes u did it well stranger. :)

and now, i wonder if there's anything would make a difference to the current situation and emotion? is it a meet up? i must say that i'm scared to think that i might not have this deeper conversation anymore with you once we meet up in a real world, the outer space from here. all this while i am learning you with your writing. i gave you my thoughts and emotion with words too. what will happen if we try for an actual conversation which involves eyes, facial expression, patting shoulder and physical impression? will i ever still be your favourite stranger in that other cruel outer space?

i wonder.

Perception.

it's been quite some time ago when this situation happened. i never tell anyone except A. since then, i just feel like crying everytime it came across my mind. i feel hurt and i dont know how to deal with it. i tried to forgive the people but i cant everytime i thought of what they did, talked and thought about me, until now. and the worst part is they are my friends. friends who shared toothpaste, kitchen groceries, pillows, eyeliner, hairban, etc etc.

:(

we thought we were meant to be a housemates. coincidentally, we have quite similar lifestyle especially in love relationship. i still remembered the moment when one of us blurted out the question and all of us were laughing like hell when each one of us saying yes for it. LOL. :')

but the happiness stopped when we moved out to another house. first of all, all of us agreed to one simple thing which is prohibited in the new house. one day, while i at the office i received text from one of my housemate who also the house owner. she asked me one question which indirectly related to that rule. i replied her with details and sorry for my silly carelessness that made her thought i broke the rule. i thought the issue would end there. but i was wrong. she replied me with a statement/question which obviously related to the rule again, and provoking me. haihhh i swear to God, only He knows how i felt at the moment. honestly, i am not good with mouth or text war. especially when it comes from a person who i loved. the best thing i can do at that kind of situation is crying.

i remembered how sad i was at that time, i can still felt the heartache. i just cant understand how could she think that way to me. i thought i've been good enough for her to trust me as a friend, like how i trust her. i did not reply the sms though, i was crying on the phone with A who at that time was meeting with a client. i remembered how he managed to talk to me by giving a toilet excuse. haihh.

back home from work, i remembered how i waited for her to ask the question or issue again to me because at that time i did feel i want to talk and explained myself although my ego said i dont have to because i did it in my sms. but nadaa. they didnt spill any word to me that night. and since then, i could feel the gap. i dont know how to describe my feeling towards them and home since that day. it's like i miss the previous craziness but i cant bear the silence treatment they gave me for something that i never did! so i tend to spend more time at the office so when i back at home, i didnt have to see their craziness while my attempts to have a conversation were ignored. i was so grateful A was with me at that time. dia dengar cerita sedih i, layan i on the phone, teman i makan, etc etc while during the same time i know they were spending time together - shopping, watching movies, lunches, blah3.. T__T

i thought the story wont be worst than that but i was wrong again.
we moved again to another house. this time, the previous house owner was not with us anymore.

one day after back home from work, i felt like i wanted to cook. FYI, i always been the only person left at home during weekend since all my housemates either will be back to their hometown or spend nights in relative's house nearby. so usually until now pun i will cook lunch for A and me on weekend, put the simple dishes in my green mangkuk tingkat and will enjoy the meal with A anywhere we would like to. Putrajaya has lots of cool places to enjoy your meals under shady trees, breezy wind, fuhhh!! memang berselera makan walaupun mungkin lauknya cuma sambal sardin dan telur dadar.

back to the story, i felt like to cook so i texted one of my housemate (the house owner too, such a coincidence) to ask her whether she wanted to eat at home or not because if she wanted, i would cook for three person. then, she replied me saying she wont eat at home and she reminded me about the same prohibited rule again in a good way. honestly, i did feel annoying but i was glad she did not provoke or perli me like previous case so i replied her explaining my original plan for the dinner (as i wrote in a previous paragraph). i was relieved when she replied and admit there's a misunderstanding of the issue.

i really thought it was an end.
yes, it's not.

few days later after the day, as usual i curi-curi masa kat ofis reading blogs. thats my hobby actually, sesambil buat kerja i will read blogs. sometimes it helps me with stress. that day, one of the blog i read was my housemate blog. to be exact, the previous house owner. masyaAllah, the latest entry was so fucking hurt me. no, it did not quote my name, even nothing about me but i knew she meant the entry for me, related with the latest situation between me and the new house owner.

how the hell that she know the story while she was not even with us anymore? Haihhh, to think about it pun i feel like crying. since then, i know no matter how my intention towards them, they will definitely perceive it as bad. since then too, i could feel the tense and awkwardness.

until now, i still in the same house with them. imagine how i have to deal with the situation and the people every single day alone? it's like the same thing in a previous home is happening again here. i remembered i read the blog with trembling hands and teary eyes, thinking of how could a roommate, a friends could think, talked, and even wrote that kind of entry. it's not about the prohibited rule anymore because Allah knows how far they went than me. it's a friendship they are ruining, it's a trust.

:(

i cant stand it anymore. i think this is why sometimes i feel guilty to A because i tend to insist him on marriage thingy although i know we're not financial ready yet.

What I Wear To Office Today (WIWTOT)

amboihh bajet ami schaheera SK ni kannn nak buat entries pasal apa yang aku pakai tiap-tiap hari. Hehehe, honestly i wish i can be bold and brave in fashion like her! ehh, nopee..actually i wish i can be bold and brave in Life like her! she's full with positive aura, i just love how she presents herself to the world despite of only-Allah-knows what has she been through.

but yea, this is only for my own pleasure lahh hehehe..besides, it's a challenge taw for me to choose what to wear to work everyday (it sounds more catchy with WIWTOT than WIWTWT kan?). it may sounds cliche but it's sad too. since i cant wear pants, the left options for me are baju kurung, kebaya, and below-knee skirts. to wear something that represent my personality is a real challenge that i write now. most of the time, i tend to wear any baju kurung or skirt available in a wardrobe, then recycle it next two weeks and recycle it again next week and there's how it goes every day.

SO BORING. SO NOT ME.

thats why when i put a little effort today to wear something different than before, i think i deserve an entry (as if i only wrote about others before). Hehehe..this is also a challenge to myself to put more effort and money (T__T) into my wardrobe. i wont against my office dress code ethic, but i want to add colours and more "me" in it. i am learning and insyaallah i'm sure i can.

alritee, i am wearing a colour blocking concept to the office today. what is colour blocking fashion style? well, you can always google for it but you can also read more in my friend's blog, CuteCarry. besides writing in his blog, he even got a slot in Wanita Hari Ini to talk about it. a very positive and vibrant fella he is.

so, what am i wearing now?

a plain teal blouse with simple floral details on its neckline (Maju Junction Mall),
a mustard yellow chiffon long skirt (Hariz Zakwan),
a long bronze chunky chain necklace (Nichii),
a chocolate ballerina shoes (Vincci),
a grey tote (Sarawak)!

a quite similar colour combination like this :

source : ICUINPARIS

i personally love teal green and mustard yellow combination. fresh and vibrant. Hehehe it took me more than half an hour this morning before finally i chose what to wear to office today. i love this mustard yellow chiffon skirt which actually bought as my baju raya. Ohh i havent write of my baju raya kann? later, insyaallah.

alrite back to the topic, this chiffon skirt actually got an attached pink sash on its waist line which can be tied sukehatiyou. however you really need confidence to wear a mustard yellow skirt with a bright pink sash on your waist among typical baju kurung ladies here. you know what i mean. Hehehe..so since my teal green blouse has already contrast with the skirt, i chose not to wear the pink sash.

the colleagues response? :)

*angkat kening*  *waaaaa cerianya!*  *kerut dahi*  *tengok atas bawah*

Hahahaha and i love them all!! i feel good when i realised how positive i am towards every comments and responds i received no matter what their glances and words mean. but my first response is from A of course. he grinned like a baby and said "why you are soo colourful today..?" huhh, okay i'll take it as a compliment though. Hehehe..

till then doodles!

the career, the money and the lesson learnt

less than a month, i will start my confirmation course for five months. although i've heard lots of stories from seniors and friends, i have to admit that i am still nervous and scared. i remembered telling my mom of my concerns during raya holiday last week, which sadly made her terribly worried about me. haihhh, silly me. i thought i just wanted to share what i heard of the course activities and how all of that affected me. she even gave me few legally wrong but cute suggestions to help me during the course hahaha.. i love you mak.

there are few things i have to settle down before the day finally come. the preparation will be on financial, physical and mental parts. i think i wont have huge problem on the last part because i believe i can still handling my emotion and mind during the period regardless of anything happen. the struggle and craziness during my previous short courses are my minimum benchmark. the physical part is the tricky one. up until today, i still havent start any of work out and exercise activity while there is huge probability that i have to do minimum of 1000x pumping, sit up, tepuk bintang, squad jumping and etc etc regime every single day during that five hell months!! this is exclude other physical activities such as kayaking, jungle trekking, jogging, etc etc.


yes, i am a dead meat.    =__________________________=

financial preparation is quite crucial too. i dont know how but no matter what, i have to pay few things before the course start or else i'll be in a big problemo. the problem is besides paying those 'things', i also need to buy few necessary things during the course. what are the necessities things? well you know normal stuffs during outdoor activities such as mosquito repellent, water shoes, pantyliners, disposable panties, wet tissues, plain black and white tshirts (this is compulsary), etc etc. i also have to buy a new court shoes since all this while, i always tend to buy a peep toe shoes which is prohibited in my course. pfft!

haihhhh, talking about money kann how i wish i did not pursue the previous loan. it's like cutting my salary for nothing because i did nothing of the money. i was so stupid and careless. i spent the money for shopping, hotels, food, all those unnecessary stuffs and now when the money has gone, i am starving yet have to pay the wasted loan. the worst part is A who should also pay half of the monthly payment currently has not been able to do that. i dont blame him though since i'm the one who spent the money like crazeyy kann. definitely this is one big lesson to me.

i think this course really getting on my nerves, i keep thinking of it. maybe i should continue my work.


till then doodles.


note : just a reminder to myself, i need to make a decision on which short hairstyle i want. i wont go to the course with my current long hair if it is only need to be soak in a dirty pond or else, in a nyonya's bun hair netting. i had a bow cut last year. well mula-mula keluar salun i rasa macam cantik but since i have a thin hair, lama-lama my bow cut hair nampak takde volume. hmmphhh! i need ideas!!

sometimes it is fun to be typical

this is my first day in office after a week of Aidilfitri holiday. No no, no such thing as boring, lemau or tak semangat. infact i feel great to be back at office! it's like a new fresh me here ehehehe.. but yeaa, i had a very wonderful holiday and raya celebration with all my families and friends back at hometown; which alhamdulillah, succeedly made me to smile until now.

during one week at hometown, i managed to go out with three of my beloved girlfriends, two days in a row! mimiko, zanito and wanato. they really made my day. we spent time talking, eating, gossiping, eating some more, laughing till tears came out, goshhh how i wish they are with me everyday. :')

we also did a small BBQ reunion party on the fourth raya night at Azam's house. this time, with more friends and food of course hehehe..now i cant wait for all the photos to be uploaded in Facebook by all cameras' owners. sadly i havent bought a new charger for my lumix yet that time. for Alor Star's peeps, please note that Sentosa Shopping Complex is a one stop centre for handphones and computers only. no cameras thingy there. pffttt!!

oh yeaa, while i arrived KL at 3.00 am on Sunday (7 hours of congested-road-like-hell journey), Mr. A and i masih punya semangat mahu jalan-jalan habiskan duit yang memang sudah tidak seberapa. Duhhhh, i bought Lulu's battery charger (Lulu is my Lumix camera name) which costed me RM220. =__= i never thought Lulu's maintainance will be this costly. but i am happy that i can bring her again, in my handbag everywhere i go!

well, lepas tu we watched Hantu Bonceng. MasyaAllah, memang sangaat kelakar okayy! it was a full house, and full of laughter too. Zizan really did it well instead of this is his first try being a main actor in a movie. but guys, janganlah tengok movie ni kalau korang nak serious scary movie although i admit i did close my eyes everytime the Juliana Evan's ghost appeared in screen. and please dont watch it too if you always think soo seriously about everything include things that meant to be a joke. i did noticed few parts about Islam and Muslim obligations which the script put it in a seriously hillarious jokes. i feel harmless though because i can 'read' the subline and message the writer want to tell us but yeaa, some people may find it "tak patut", "tak sesuai", "mempermainkan agama", that kind of opinions you know? i wont say people who think it that way is wrong or what not, but yeaa for you guys who have not watch the movie yet, please take note with this ye? :) my review point to this Hantu Bonceng movie will be 3.5/5. they can improve more on certain pushlines. my favourite character in the movie goes to Kunyit (Taiyuddin Bakar). honestly i cant remember this fella from any drama or movie i watched before but he is a good actor i must say. kelakar, menyerlah, tapi tak overshadow the main character. just nice.

well, the best part about this Syawal is i noticed a typical change for a girl after raya has happened to me. please note i did not write "a typical change for me". it's because this is my first time facing this kind of change while i always heard it from my girlfriends. how does it feel?? Ngeeee, i feel normal man! :p it's like finally i can 100% understand and relate to my girlfriends' stories and babbling of this thing!

okay okay, stop talking nonsense because actually while i am happily typing this entry i have lots of work which need to be completely done by..today. the change that i am bragging about to mr. A (for now) is i gain weight after raya! Ngeeeee...people who really knows me will understand how that scary fact for most girls in the world seems to be a long awaited magic for me. alrite, i may seem to be exaggerating it but yea, i am happy to be a normal girl who worries of her kilos and such.

so my current weight is 41.4 kilograms which is 2 kilos extra before raya. i need to gain 3.6 kilograms more before i can claim i have an ideal weight. however i do have few concerns of this weight gaining because apparently i just eat and eat with no exercise at all. i think this is why i noticed evil's lemak extra on unwanted and unnecessary 'places' on my body. Ngeeee..can i have my current waist measurement with 45 kilograms of weight?? ehh okayy, pecah rahsia where is one of the lemak jahat punya port. T__T

well i think i can! i just need to do some sort of exercise and work out. i always have this "woooww" and "waahhhh" everytime i watch Rozita Che Wan in any TV shows. i read in a magazine that her current measurement is 36-25-36. wallaaaweeiiii kannnn!!?? and how old is her children already??  =____= no wonder lah Shahir AF yang kanyaq tu pun gilakan dia.

so girls, jangan putus asa okay. tak kisahlah kamu overweight ke, underweight macam i ke, we're the one who decides what to do and how do we want to look like. we just have to do the effort, the result will be in His hand kann. one more thing, please put HEALTH as your priority, not BEAUTY okay.


till then doodles.